Hello, friends. It’s been a while. I think I should probably stop pretending like this is unusual and just admit that I’m very bad at regularly updating this blog.
I am very bad at regularly updating this blog.
Although, in my defense, if I had been updating it, those updates would have looked something like this:
Stardate July 14: Someone sat on me on the train today.
Stardate August 9: I found three Discworld books at the thrift store!
Stardate September 4: Samwise loves The Avett Brothers and always sings along to their music. Only them. If I’m listening to Pandora and Sam starts chirping, I know it’s The Avett Brothers without looking. It’s awesome.
And before anyone jumps down my throat, I know that’s not how stardates work. My point is, there has been no news to share. But someone recently suggested that maybe it would be good to let you know that there is no real news. Also I would like prayer, and I’m not embarrassed to admit it, for once.
Here are all the updates:
1. No doctor yet, but I’ve sorted it all out with insurance and basically just have to go through an upsettingly long list and pick one. Hopefully I will have an appointment in the next two weeks. This will be with a primary care physician, who will then have to recommend a cardiologist, neurologist, hematologist/oncologist, psychiatrist, etc. So I’ll be having a lot of doctor visits in the near future.
2. I’m feeling fairly business as usual now, which is a positive change from most of the past two months. I’ve been pretty sick. Apparently my body doesn’t think that commuting four hours every day is a good idea, which leads to…
3. I had to resign from my job. In addition to the sick and the commuting, it’s apparently impossible to see doctors when you are gone from 6 a.m. to 7 p.m. Monday through Friday. (I find this frankly ridiculous, because when does everyone else with cancer do their doctor stuff? WHEN? People still have cancer on the weekends, doctors!) Anyway, I’m job-hunting again, and it’s going pretty well. I’ve made myself little weekly goal lists to keep from endlessly surfing Pinterest for new recipes (day 2 of unemployment: tempered chocolate and didn’t blow up the house! SUCCESS) and binge-watching sci-fi television. I’m hoping to find a job in the area of my church, which would lead to me moving a little ways, but I’ve found that I am better in my spirit when I go to church, and sometimes when I wake up on Sunday mornings the migraine punches me in my face and says, “You want to go to church? TOO BAD. No long drives for you, sucker.” Also I want to be more involved which is hard when you’re an hour away. So I’m looking for a new job by my church so the commuting in my life will go down to smaller amounts.
That’s all the updating, basically. For the first time since sophomore year of college I have zero idea of what my platelet count is. This is simultaneously terrifying and nice. But it can’t last. The sooner I see a doctor, the better.
So here’s my prayer request: Please pray that I find a new job by my church, and also that I find a good primary care doctor who can lead me to good specialists. It’s really important to me to find health care providers who help me make lifestyle changes to treat my symptoms instead of throwing more pills at me. Thanks for being awesome, reading all of my nonsense, and praying for me!
And I give you my word: I will strive wholeheartedly to post another update before the time of the annual turkey sacrifice.