This is my cancer blog. I’ll probably write about other things, too, just so it doesn’t get depressing or obnoxious, but mostly I’ll be writing about this whole cancer nonsense. And I have a friend to help me!
This is Li’l Almond Cub, my cancer support bear. I got my test results back from a second hospital on Friday afternoon, and on Saturday my family and two close friends went to get him with me. The girl at Build-a-Bear let everyone put in a heart when she heard what he was for, so he has about 10 hearts stuffed into him. He’s going to be my cancer journey companion, because I love cheesy puns and “bear with me” was too good to pass up.
I’m aware that it can be too easy to give up when I’m fighting an incurable condition, but I’m deciding every day to see cancer as an opportunity. One of my favorite songs (which was inspired by one of my favorite books), “The Long Defeat” by Sara Groves, says “I can’t just fight when I think I’ll win–that’s the end of all belief.” I think that more is at stake than just my bone marrow and my blood. I think my attitude, my spirit, and the condition of my heart could all be damaged just as surely as my cells, and I don’t intend to let that happen.
Li’l Almond Cub has little (or li’l, as the case may be) scrubs, an x-ray, and a slightly scary surgical mask so he can help me fight cancer with class, humor, faith, and intimidation.
Look at that game face.
Cancer doesn’t stand a chance.